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Post by sunniful no one on Apr 24, 2009 15:56:36 GMT -8
A S H paw ! ! it started out as a feeling, which then turned into a hope.[/size][/font][/center][/color] I stared in front of me blankly. My paws folded neatly. It was dawn. And un-like every other lazy apprentice in the forest, I had been up for ages. I couldn't sleep. My stomach churned uncomfortably, still adjusting to the new surroundings. I just felt out of place, and lonely. And who knew when the deputy would ever call me for training. At the slightest movement of Blizzardpaw, I jumped. My nerves were thin, and I was highly impatient. The sun was just beginning to peek around the corner, but I wanted it to go away, go away so I could have a second chance at sleep. Obviously I wasn't on great terms with the sun, because it continued to rise.
then that word grew louder & louder. till it was a battle cry.[/size][/font][/center][/color] In my weak-minded dreams, when I could squeeze them in, I dreamed of friends. Somebody to back me up, adventures we had together. And though I wouldn't like to admit it, there was occasional romance. And then I would always wake up. Groaning, I have myself onto all fours. But of course, in my dreams I was always the hero I knew I could never be. And then sometimes there would be betrayal. The one person I loved most would turn out to be plotting my clan's downfall. I wished my visions of granduer could just last a while longer... pick a star on the dark horizon and follow the light. you'll come back when its over, no need to say good-bye.[/size][/font][/center][/color] I shoulder my way out of the den and blink rapidly at my pupils adjust to the blinding light. I realize, after my eyes adjust, that the clan is filled with a springy green and lemon light. Its nice really, but it reminds me all too much of my far and few in between dreams. The dreams that I cling to, or try so hard to forget. Step lightly now, I travel not far as I put some distance between me and the apprentice den, I have no good memories there. Not there. Not here. Not anywhere. I have made none in my slow exsistance. I dare to dream or even hope, that this mentor, this coach, may even be someone who cares. And dare I call... A friend? But this thought rattles me, because I know that eventually all cats cannot be truly loyal to their friends, no word can bind them. And I know that some day they will be betray me, or plot against me. So I go on in my cold, non-living way.
But then I like to believe that my friends are indeed out that. Just because they can't feel it too, doesn't mean I have to forget... now were back to the beginning. its just a feeling and no one knows yet.[/size][/font][/center][/color] word count;; 599
comments;; woah! ! Sort of angsty. But whatevs... |
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Post by blackie on May 2, 2009 10:45:21 GMT -8
It was time. She knew it was a few days after the young kit, now apprentice's ceremony. She had to wait. There was a certain clue that she was looking for. A clue that Ashpaw would be ready to train. A clue that Ashpaw could keep up. The sign was the young apprentice getting up at dawn waiting, just waiting for her in hopes that she would call him forward. Blizzardpaw had yet to do so. Perhaps she would be more reluctant to mentor young Ashpaw over Blizzardpaw who seemed to be rather lazy compared to everyone else in the clan.
A light breeze picked up. The the lemon light sparkled around warming her auburn colored fur. It was nice to be out of the season where snow covered the forest. Where it was to cold even when you slept close to other cats. The warmth made you relax it made you think that peace would be forever, however in the mind of a warrior you knew that this was not true for the least. You knew that around every corner danger could be looking."Are you ready Ashpaw? She gave no greeting. Or any sense of thrill for that matter. She would do the usual showing the boarder. The entire boarder not just bits and pieces. Explaining each clan, their strengths, their weaknesses. The best places to hunt, the training hallow. The biggest tree. She Of course if there was time she would show the apprentice a few hunting crouches to get him started that way the next time that they trained together Ashpaw wouldn't be completely hopeless. Then again, she took her time with these things. One mentor might be able to show their apprentice the territory in just minutes, however it would take them hours.....
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Post by sunniful no one on May 2, 2009 21:35:20 GMT -8
[font=Georgia[color=Honeydew ASH paw! ! [/color][/font] somewhere out there...
beneath a pale blue sky.[/center][/size][/color][/font] Now with the feeling of regret I stood. I could tell I was not the one hoped for. But I couldn't do anything about it. I couldn't change the fact that I was the perfect apprentice everyone hoped for. Good-morning. I mewed out of politeness, but now that I knew that this relationship would always be slightly uncomfortable I kept my distance. Built the wall. I looked her stonily in the eye letting her know that I could keep up. My paws itched to take off, just to prove it. But I didn't, my self-control was incredible, or my lack of liveliness didn't allow me to grope that far. [/size] we'll find one another.
And it'll be somewhere out there.[/center][/size][/color][/font] I didn't know what to expect on my first day out with my mentor. Of course I knew about the run-of-the-mill tour. I figured I should get a kick out of this, because afterwards it wasn't going anywhere but down, till we hit rock bottom and never inched up again. I tried to hard to smile and it came out a grimace, so I stashed it away, I couldn't waste my far and few smiles on her. Not the woman who didn't want me. In fact, she was beginning to sound more and more like my mother by description. Hawkwhisker... [/size] And even though I know how very far apart we are...
it helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star...[/center][/size][/color][/font] Tears sprung to my eyes and silently slipped out. I choked back and absent sob. And by absent meaning that I choked back what should have been there but wasn't. I pricked my ears toward my mentor in case the weary lady spoke, and I highly doubted she would be the type to repeat it back to me. My thoughts weren't here, but they weren't anywhere, as there was no where for them to go. The also remained no-exsistant. Gulping, I decided to follow my mentor in a ghost-like form to not bother her to much, and maybe she would forget about me and go on with her daily routine so I could see what she'd really rather be doing, because I knew for a fact that cats like our deputy wouldn't really tell me the biting truth. I wished ever so much now that I had someone actually interested in me as a mentor, someone like... Roaringstar. [/size] if love can see us through...
then we'll find one another and it'll be somewhere out there.[/center][/size][/color][/font] word count;; 559 including coding.
credit;; Somwhere out there
comments;; uhrm... Ashpaw is a girl...? |
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